2 years

It's been 2 years since I last spoke to you. What a wonderful conversation. How I wish I had known it would be our last! I would have never hung up the phone! There's so much more I wanted to share with you! I would have told you about all the wonderful memories you've given me, about how much I've learned from you, about how much I loved your friendship and what a wonderful father you were.

I still have dreams of that night and wake up in tears. Time passes, I think about you less often, but still I can't believe you are no longer here. The pain is still very raw. I miss you so much.

I love you.
Sara

Happy Birthday Abba

Happy Birthday Abba.

I still think of you every day but especially on days like today. How I wish you were here to celebrate with us. I keep thinking of the wonderful daddy date we had at La Folie and wish I could treat you there tonight.
I'm having a baby Abba. I wish you were here to share this experience with me. I think of you now as my guardian angel, watching over me and my baby. Somehow I feel that you know my baby already- maybe you picked him/ her out and brought it to me. I remember Granny saying she was sad she'd never get to see my children and you telling me I should have a baby right away. Maybe you are both looking over us now. I know you loved children and loved being a father. And you were a great father to me. Thank you so much for all the love you've given me. I never once doubted that I was special to you. That has helped me through so much and it is something I will pass on to my child.

I love you
Sara